Dec 30: woke up late even 2day..wen m supposed to wake up early...d alarm..didnt go..in d mrng..later found out tht..instead of setting it to 7.45 am...set it to 7.45 pm....rushed to hav mah bath and brkfst...just in tym to catch d train 2 Reading...

The journey 2 Reading was awsome..the train went in a different route..not d one it normally goes..and d country side was awsome...its gud 2 be at home..u need not worry bout wat to cook for lunch.dinner...brkfst...evrything is taken care of....had a long day 2day...going 2 bed at almost 2 in d nyt....

Dec 29:..twas a dull day 2day...woke up late....n d rain all day..made d day even duller...did nthn...xcept lazing around in mah room...had a brunch...over a chat with home...watchd a flm...thn wnt 2 work......got a sort of a shock frm mah manager...vll reveal it only when m out of d shock..booked tkts 2 reading..and went under d waiting covers...a borin..dull day..

Dec 28th: woke up really late 2day...around 11.00 am....thnx 2 d cozy feeling under d covers and having nothing better 2 do..did nothing actually 2day...planned for a film with a frnd...but found out tht..he was at work 2day to earn some xtra bucks..due to d bank holiday...had mah brunch..and slpt for a part of d aftrnoon..did some "essentials" shopping in d evng...

Had a tuf tym peeling and chopping d potatoes for dinner...tried making potato fry..d way Mom makes it....but it was a near disaster..mind u "a near disaster"...d taste was ok..but sumthn was missin..i guess..its coz..i bought baking potatoes..beacuse they were big..and easy to cut...typed a part of mah dissertation aftr dinner...just a wee bit...i guess..that the amount of tensions for me to go through as destined by fate..are all coming to pass by the tym i finish my Masters..

Dec 27th: sunday...woke up..not wanting to get out of d covers...had a long bath...not wanting to come out of d shower...der was a gud sermon at church..i mean half d sermon was gud...donno bout d other half..coz i was dozing off...came home..had lunch...rasam 2day was awsum...
Had a good long chat vth mom-dad and munna...thn..sundeep had 2 leave 2 work...I went to an evng service of a different church..d one whose pastor was Steve...gr8 news is tht..I gave a testimony there..which was well appreciated..and I realized tht I was wrong in a different aspect..
Jagadish anna is bak in d UK...n wants sundeep n me 2 visit him once v submit our dissertations...thts quite a freezing thot..as d temps in tht part of UK at that point in tym wld be sub zero degrees...started typing mah dissertation report 2day..which in some sorts is an achievement...but was nt able to concetrate on d report for long...
guess gotta wake up early 2moro..plannin 2 go to Reading...donno if I wld b goin..but there is a 90% chance of sundeep and I going to Reading 2moro..
D room is quite warm and nice..it seem 2 be getting warmer day by day...jus praying tht Andy is happy vth mah report..
I still miss being at home..in hyderabad..i miss d company of mah family..friends..

Dec 26:...Its Boxing Day.....evry1 was shoppin..thnx 2 all d sales on d HighStreet...Praise God!!!! its been one of the most wonderful days...ive ever had since returning to the UK....It was bright and sunny..the temp was ok..it was quite warm....d city centre was bustling with all the offers and sales they had to offer....

Met mah old roomie...did some shopping...but was wandering d whole day....wnt 2 his plc..to hav some fish fry...but thnx to his forgetfulness...v had 2 eat pizzas for lunch....almost ended not paying 12Quid for d meal..but..sumthin in me told me to pay d forgetfull hotelier..

D evng was gud..as well..thnx to Pastor Steve for inviting us over for sum food and fellowship..d Turkey sandwiches wer awsum...so was d chocolate cake...but..d fellowship with his family was d bst part of d evng...overall..d day was gud..i can say...tht it was one of d bst days...I had..since i came back..to soton....and I thank God for tht!!!!

Dec 25: Yipee!!!! Its Christmas!!!!!!!!! was echoin all around...but mah heart was cryin...Why am I so low on a Christmas Day!!!!!!!! Woke up to mah alaram aftr 3 months...wnt 2 church...mah only Christmas Celebration dis yr.....Bak frm Church..slpt thru d aftrnoon..really really feeling homesick!!! I neva missed being at home so much..neva in mah lyf!!!! n now I miss home..wen I shld b der d most..wen i shld b mah strongest...evrything..evrything is fuelling my low-period now..being away from home, not having any1 around for Christmas.. d climate..d short days...d pressures of mah dissertation...evrything..evrything has teamed up against me...with a revenge..so bad..tht I am completely getting crushed under all these...

The only saving grace of today is me having a live chat with mom-dad and munna...d happiest 2 hrs of mah lyf 2day...feel lyk calling home now(1.30am) and talk to mom and dad...but cant...do..Neva felt so lonely..m luky tht I have sundeep beside me...but cant confide mah feelings to him...coz..he too vll feel low...Jus prayin...tht I get over this period soon..God...please pass me through this night soon..let this night be turned to day soon Lord..in Jesus' name..I pray Amen.

Dec 24: Its Christmas Eve....not really excited bout Christmas dis tym.....spoke to dad..2day...seeing him aftr a week..donno y..but still mah throat got choked with emotions....did nothn...2day..xcept for shoppin some essentials...every1 on d highstreet seemed to be xcited bout christmas...shoppin for presents..shoppin for themselves....
Its a regular day at work...had I not been workin 2day..I wld've been a bit xcited bout Christmas....D pressure of havin 2 submit mah dissertation is already mounting on me....1 yr of Master's has shown me enuf pressure to last a lyftym...

2morro is Christmas...goin to bed in anticipation bout how to spend mah day 2moro...

Dec 23: 2day woke up pretty late..thnx 2 d radiator in mah room...twas so cozy under d quilt and d room so warm..tht dnt feel lyk gettin out of bed...quite a wet day..been 2 d uni..due to some travel work...met an old friend...chatted up for a long tym...wnt window shoppin 2gether...

bak to mah room..had a nice long chat vth mom n munna...miss being at home for christmas...dad's on a journey home...glad 2 hear tht...wld b seein dad aftr a week..Hyderabad is bak in chaos...thnx 2 d telangana sentiment..and Chidambaram....

2day, I strtd to thnk seriously bout writin mah dissertation...and d thot of having 2 submit it on d 15th of Jan..is givin me jitters....mark mah words...no more study aftr mah Masters!!!!! Neva felt so much under pressure ever in mah lyf as I felt durin d last 1yr of mah Masters...

Its quite warm n cosy in mah room..tym 2 hit d bed...luks lyk gonna wake up quite late 2moro...

Dec 22: 2day woke up to a bright day...d sun was shining bright..wnt 2 d uni quite early in d mrng..did nthn though...met some classmates...had a gud tym at d uni...
had 2 rush 2 work in d evng...thnks to all d ice on d roads..d buses wer late...had a tiring shft....
2day was a day of mixed emotions....happy coz, succeeded in gettin d radiator fxd in mah room...vll hav a gud warm sleep...and not so happy coz...mah manager refused to giv me leave for christmas..though..dis is d 1st tym mah leave request has been rejected..it hurts d most coz..i needed dis leave badly..well...slowly..really slowly..tryin 2 get bak 2 normal...

Dec 21: Monday....."last week dis tym..I was.." dis was d first thot I had wen I woke up...reminicising about d last day at home..feeling nostalgic...but had 2 wake up n go to d uni....
had an appointment with d visa advisor..made mah application for an extension of mah visa...

Had a go at mah landlord 2day regarding d fixation of the radiators...bloddy assole's bcum 2 money minded...assole..gav him a piece of mah mind and m pretty happy bout tht..

D whole day was gloomy and twas snowin most of d tym..n wen it wasn't snowin...der wer sleet showers....had 2 go 2 work 2day...

2day's d 1st tym since returning...tht sundeep talked about being bak at home...thnx 2 d climate..n mah accomodation here...bloody landlord!!! SOB...thnks he can get away....he'll get a good piece of mah mind..if thngs dnt happen mah way....n m pretty sure bout it..

Dec 20: 2day is Sunday!!!..but nthn much 2 b happy or excited about....wnt 2 church..aftr 2 months..was gud..one of d thngs I luv bout d English is their love,affection and warmth...but though in church..i was reminiscing about last sunday...d 13th of dec...mah church in hyd..lunch at Paradise..Manu's treat...cousins who'd come down for a final gudbye..

d later part of d day was gud..spoke 2 all mah cousins..who wer partyin..sundeep n i r d only ones missin..had a gud tym at work..but..d nyt was damn cold..

Dec 19: 2day mrng was quite cold...twas..-4 wen i woke up...but as d day birgthend ...so did I..but still feel tht I miss mah kind of lyf....went 2 work 2day..was gud..but since was away for 2months...felt a bit hectic...d bloddy landlord..stil hasnt got d radiators fixed..nothn wrong swearin at tht SOB!!!!

Dec 18: 2day was a lot better, compared to d previous few days..but m still unable to get-over d home-sickness..unable to sleep till late in d mrng...though i sleep late..m awake by 6.00 am, mah thorat still gets choked when I speak 2 Dad..had a few gud talks 2day..mah chat session vth mom n munna was gud...and a few calls 2 sum vry spl frnds..sure did lite up mah day a bit..m still waitin for d landlord to fit d radiator in mah room...d electric heater is increasin mah electricity bill!!!!!
d thot of 2moro being a saturday doesn't xcite me..coz mah heart goes bak to d last saturday..wen I was at home..jus hopin tht 2moro wld b fyn..n i wld b able to get home and hyderabad..out of mah mind for sumtym!!!

Dec 17: donno watz in store for me 2day...feelin low...jus praying tht d day brightens up...not able 2 sleep since 6.00 in d mrng..God plz hlp me...strengthen me..
lukily 2 day m feelin a bit better....had a change of mah room...but still...sumthin is missin...i guess...its mah heart...vch stayed bak in Hyderabad..at home...i neva knew tht I am such an emotional...home-attached guy..had an appointment for a house-viewing dis evening...but dnt wrk out....gettin really pissed about mah landlord..assole...cant imagine hez turned so greedy...

bak 2 UK

Dec 16: landed in d UK for d 2nd tym yesterday...donno y, but inspite of stayin alone for d last 1 yr, was feelin very very homesick!! Guess its due to mah room. My flyt bak was pretty ok..but i was pretty much out of mah mood..not wantin 2 leave home..though I managed not 2 cry when parting, feel lyk breaking down now..though present here physically, mah mind,,mah heart..r still at 402,pratibha apts., jus feel lyk goin bak and settling down at home..I guess wats fuelling my home-sickness is d weather here in UK..dull,grey..gloomy!!! Miss ya MOM, DAD and Munna!!!