Dec 25: Yipee!!!! Its Christmas!!!!!!!!! was echoin all around...but mah heart was cryin...Why am I so low on a Christmas Day!!!!!!!! Woke up to mah alaram aftr 3 months...wnt 2 church...mah only Christmas Celebration dis yr.....Bak frm Church..slpt thru d aftrnoon..really really feeling homesick!!! I neva missed being at home so much..neva in mah lyf!!!! n now I miss home..wen I shld b der d most..wen i shld b mah strongest...evrything..evrything is fuelling my low-period now..being away from home, not having any1 around for Christmas.. d climate..d short days...d pressures of mah dissertation...evrything..evrything has teamed up against me...with a revenge..so bad..tht I am completely getting crushed under all these...

The only saving grace of today is me having a live chat with mom-dad and munna...d happiest 2 hrs of mah lyf 2day...feel lyk calling home now(1.30am) and talk to mom and dad...but cant...do..Neva felt so lonely..m luky tht I have sundeep beside me...but cant confide mah feelings to him...coz..he too vll feel low...Jus prayin...tht I get over this period soon..God...please pass me through this night soon..let this night be turned to day soon Lord..in Jesus' name..I pray Amen.